The cloud coverage has settled itself in for the long autumn stay here in the ????????????????????? ???????????????????????????. The rain is dousing the ground with some much-needed replenishment. We have been mirroring much of the California weather as of late.?I’m here in my sunroom, following behind my one-year-old, feeling cloudy, physically weak, and in pain as my anxiety starts to rise slowly. I can feel it simmering at the top of my spine. Have you felt that before? I can feel the metal in my neck stiffening (definitely in my head), and my heart begins to race. As a working mom, I cannot afford to get sick. But here I am… ?It has captured me, brutal, but also taunting, while it says “At least I’m not covid!” ?